- The Washington Times - Sunday, April 16, 2006

PURCELL, Okla. (AP) — The man accused of killing a 10-year-old neighbor girl for an elaborate plan to eat human flesh joked about cannibalism on his online diary, discussed the effects of not taking his anti-depression medication and mentioned “dangerously weird” fantasies.

All he wanted in life, Kevin Ray Underwood wrote in his blog, was “to be able to live like a normal person.”

The 26-year-old grocery store stocker was arrested Friday. Investigators searched his apartment after he aroused their suspicions at a checkpoint and found a large plastic tub in a bedroom closet. According to a police affidavit, he confessed that he killed Jamie Rose Bolin, telling FBI agents: “Go ahead and arrest me. She is in there. I chopped her up.”

Purcell Police Chief David Tompkins said Saturday that the apparent motive was a cannibalism plan.

Mr. Underwood, who is to be charged with first-degree murder today, lived alone in an apartment downstairs from the one where Jamie lived with her father. Authorities think Mr. Underwood killed the girl Wednesday, when she disappeared after going to a library, by beating and smothering her. His family was shocked.

“This is something that I don’t know where it came from,” Mr. Underwood’s mother, Connie, said through tears in a brief telephone interview yesterday. “I would like to be able to tell her family how sorry we are. I just feel so terrible.”

On his blog, an online diary that he had kept since September 2002, Mr. Underwood described himself as “single, bored and lonely, but other than that, pretty happy.”

He mentions cannibalism, asking “If you were a cannibal, what would you wear to dinner?” and responding: “The skin of last night’s main course.”

In an entry dated Feb. 4, 2006, Mr. Underwood wrote that he struggled with depression and social interaction.

“Pretty much the only time I believe in God is when I blame him for something,” he said. “Or, when I’m really depressed, to cry and beg him to make me better, to make whatever is wrong in my brain go away, so that I can live like a normal person.”

He wrote that he rarely left his apartment for long stretches, except to go to work and to buy food. “I just sit here at the computer every minute of the day, when I’m not at work. A week or so ago, I spent my day off sitting here at the computer, barely moving from the chair, for 14 hours.”

In September 2004, he wrote that his depression deepened after several months without taking the medication Lexapro, an antidepressant also used in the treatment of anxiety disorders.

“For example, my fantasies are just getting weirder and weirder. Dangerously weird,” he wrote. “If people knew the kinds of things I think about anymore, I’d probably be locked away. No probably about it, I know I would be.”

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