This isn’t the life she imagined — “That’s actually a phrase we’ve used, this isn’t how it was supposed to be,” said Emma Dixon — and Wheldon has been angry about different things during her stages of grief, but not at Dan, at least not yet.
“Maybe that will come later, I don’t know,” she said. “We definitely shared something. It sounds silly to say because it sounds so cliche, but I know a lot of people don’t experience that, what we had. I feel lucky (but) our four years of being married is like a second (in time). I get angry sometimes at that, that I wish we could have grown old together.
“I am thankful just for everything that we do have. Did have. Two beautiful children. We had an amazing life together and I know most people don’t experience that in a lifetime. That’s something that I hold on to.”
Wheldon is also grateful for the support she’s received from inside the racing community — an auction started by Graham Rahal after the accident raised $627,203 — and she’s been touched by fans who sent her thoughtful notes about her husband. She read every one, replied with hand-written thank you letters and saved them all to one day show her sons.
“There’s a lot of times, I think, that when people pass away everybody that’s left sometimes can romanticize about the idea of what that person was or what they did,” she said. “With Dan, he really was that amazing guy. It wasn’t like you’re kind of embellishing because everyone wants to say good things about someone when they’re not here. He really was that guy.
“He was an incredible human being. He was obviously a fierce competitor, but he was an even better person. That’s not an exaggeration.”